NOTHING !!

Months have gone by and it seems like time has stood still for me.  All the emotions I have did not change.  They say time heals all wounds, I don't think my wounds will ever be healed.  I have never felt so empty and sad in my life, I just want to lay down and sleep until the suffering is gone.  I try so had to not think about him but it don't work I feel as if a part of me is missing, I have actual pain in my heart from the lonelyness. I pray every night for a mircle, and I listen for Jesus to give me the answers but I guess I am not listening good enough because I don't ever hear it.  There are many days that I sit in my room in the dark and listen for the answer but never seems to come.  I sit alone and think about my life and why is this happening to me.  The darkness is the only place I feel I deserve to be, so I guess I will just sit and hope my answer comes.