There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of you, you are the first thing I think about in the morning and last thing I think about before I sleep.  So many people tell me to give up he does not love you anymore.  How can you tell somone for 11 years that you love and always will, then leave your family and say that you do not love me any longer.  I spent so many hours just trying to understand that. How can you be so heartless your kids love you want daddy to come home. Well that what I get for screaming at you to leave, you did not want to leave that night but my heart just could not take the pain any longer the hurt full coments. I would like to say that I am sorry for everything I said that hurt you and hope that u will someday find it in your heart to forgive and see that I love you and always will.