Not a day goes by !!!

It has been almost three months now and it seems like yesterday that we had that fight and I made u leave.  I just want my old life back minus the mean Matt, other than that are life was pretty good.  I can feel down deep in my soul that u still love me and thing about me alot, when will the day come when u knock at my door and ask for forgives, I will forgive u but things have to be differnt u need to get help for the anger problems u have and for feeling like u need to sleep with other woman, I thought that are love making was good and that I satified u, why must this pain go on please just come back we can work threw it are love is very deep and I understand everything about u....I have told u that I am sorry for everything I said and did, if I can forgive u for sleeping with another woman then u can forgive me....Please hun forgive me and come home we love u with all are hearts !

There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of you, you are the first thing I think about in the morning and last thing I think about before I sleep.  So many people tell me to give up he does not love you anymore.  How can you tell somone for 11 years that you love and always will, then leave your family and say that you do not love me any longer.  I spent so many hours just trying to understand that. How can you be so heartless your kids love you want daddy to come home. Well that what I get for screaming at you to leave, you did not want to leave that night but my heart just could not take the pain any longer the hurt full coments. I would like to say that I am sorry for everything I said that hurt you and hope that u will someday find it in your heart to forgive and see that I love you and always will.

Making you leave

I regret making u leave, my heart was broken by the way u were treating are family and me...you said so many hurtful thing and I jsut could not do it any longer.  I tried so had to make u see how much I loved u and how much your family loved and wanted u to be there for them...why do u need to tell so many lies, are life together was happy (well I thought u happy ) and we were together for 11 years...why would u stay that long if u had no love for me.   I gave up so much to be with u and yet u still tell lies...Just remeber I told u that u always will have a home with us that we will always love u forever...Can u stay the same about her !!!